Dreams of a Skinny Future

Today has been average. I didn't eat until the point of bursting, nor did I starve. Actually, I'd say today was a healthy day without the usual extremities that cloud a normal eating habit. For breakfast I had one apple with about a tablespoon of peanut butter. The peanut butter does have quite a few calories but it's supposed to be the healthy kind (Unlike a cheese burger/junk food calories). Then later I had toast with jam and green tea with a little sugar. At around 2 pm I ate an egg salad sandwich with my mom, and again a few hours later I had more apple with peanut butter. So maybe that isn't exactly low in the calorie department but I feel like that is how a normal person would eat. Without the obsessions of food and such. It was really rather relaxing but that little voice in my head tells me it was too much. 

Tomorrow I will start the SGD (Skinny Girl Diet for those who don't know) because it seems easier than ABC. I'm thinking once I complete the 30 day SGD I'll move on to ABC and go from there. I'll try to eat more complex foods rather than packaged foods because they always lead to a binge. If anyone's up for it I would be delighted if you would join me on the SGD :) Let me know in the comments....

Yes I wimped out today and didn't weigh myself. I'm SO sorry, but because the last few days have been a bit bumpy I was terrified of a gain. I really couldn't face it if my weight had gone up so I decided to not risk the failure eating and do better this week. I really don't know where all of this motivation goes when the thought of food gets in my head. I must have willpower. I must be strong.

Thanks a ton for the comments! It means a lot to me that people are reading this :) Now, to work on my World History presentation due tomorrow. Woop-dee-doo.

~Love From Cali <3