Monday, July 15, 2013

A New Start

Hi! I've been stuck in a rut lately because all my friends eat like crap and I've been staying at their houses a lot. I can feel (and see) my body hating the junk I've been stuffing it with :/ Lukily, my metabolism isn't too bad so I'm still at 123 pounds. Don't get me wrong, that is not a number I like to see, but its so much better than 130 or even 125. I haven't been able to sleep until 3 am for about a week now, mostly due to lack of exercise (no ballet for the last two weeks). Classes start again tomorrow and I'm hoping they'll help my sleep schedule :) 

I really want to start eating better. Less sugar, bread, salt, processed food..... etc. Maybe I'll let myself have one sweet treat per week but not much more than that. 

Starving doesn't work as well as it used to for me. I only end up binging and, ultimately, getting nowhere. 

Hard work pays off. Trust me <3

Friday, July 5, 2013

Just A Quick Hello

Hi! I just got back from watching the fireworks to celebrate Independence Day with my friends and family. I wanted to write this for anyone who reads my blog. I'm not sure how long I will continue this, but I wont vanish again. For now I'll keep post at least every-other day. I guess you could say I hate myself less these days. Then again, summer usually has less stress for me and maybe it will return with the school year. Taking it one day at a time.

Hope everyone is doing well :) Have a lovely week where ever you are <3


Thursday, July 4, 2013

What to Say......

Hello everyone! I really don't know what to say after such a long absence. I'm sorry I stopped posting so suddenly :( I know exactly how it feels to wonder what happened to a blogger. Are they happy? Sad? Dying? .....Dead? I used to follow a girl who blogged every month or so. At first I wasn't too worried when she didn't post for a while, but as more and more months went by I began to wonder if she was okay. Her last post hadn't been all that cheerful either. All I could do was hope she was living her life maybe someday she would let us know how she was. 

I really didn't intend to leave for so long. I could see myself posting every few days for a long, long time. So when I say this was unexpected, I really mean it. I guess you could say I've changed, but I am always changing. I'm trying not to think too much about calories and fat percentages. For a while I just ate whatever and didn't even try to restrict. Dieting doesn't work for me, that much I know. I get way too obsessed with food when I diet and that just ends up causing me to eat more.

I believe I am currently still at 123 pounds. I am trying not to eat so much junk food and sugar. I exercise most days (sometimes it's just cleaning the house for my mom XD). I'm letting my schedule be more fluid, while at the same time making sure I fit in the necessary things. It seems to be working so far :P I love summer.

Just know, if I don't post, I am okay. I do want to continue this blog because there are so many supportive people here and sometimes I need to say things I can't say to anyone else. Hopefully I'll post tomorrow. I want to :)