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A New Start

Hi! I've been stuck in a rut lately because all my friends eat like crap and I've been staying at their houses a lot. I can feel (and see) my body hating the junk I've been stuffing it with :/ Lukily, my metabolism isn't too bad so I'm still at 123 pounds. Don't get me wrong, that is not a number I like to see, but its so much better than 130 or even 125. I haven't been able to sleep until 3 am for about a week now, mostly due to lack of exercise (no ballet for the last two weeks). Classes start again tomorrow and I'm hoping they'll help my sleep schedule :) 

I really want to start eating better. Less sugar, bread, salt, processed food..... etc. Maybe I'll let myself have one sweet treat per week but not much more than that. 

Starving doesn't work as well as it used to for me. I only end up binging and, ultimately, getting nowhere. 

Hard work pays off. Trust me <3

I See Progress!!

I just spent most of my afternoon sewing ribbons and elastic onto my pre-pointe shoes. I didn't realize how long it took...........or maybe it's just me being a noob :P Either way it's pretty late right now so I gotta keep this post on the shorter side.

I weighed 122.4 lbs this morning and then 121.4 when I got home :) I see progress. Hopefully I'll get even more of a loss tomorrow. Squeee!! I'm so excited to were my pretty shoes!! Heheh, I probably sound so weird right now, but it's EXCITING.

Oh, also I'm going to a wedding this weekend. It's a few hours away from where I live so I'll probably be leaving Friday and getting back Sunday. Now that I think about it that will help me avoid weekend-binging :)

Life is good right now. Except school. That still sucks. But whatever.

I'm in such an odd mood right now XD Hope you guys are being awesome!! Luv ya <3

Can you tell I love Lana? heehee..... :)

By the way, this video does not belong to me.

I'm Alive!!!

Long time no blog! My life felt like it was missing something for a while because I didn't have access to my computer or internet :/ There are so many new things I want to share!

Reason for not blogging: I skipped a bunch of school which resulted in a confiscated computer and an iPod blocked from the internet (my dad is really good with computer technology and related stuff so I was kinda screwed.......).

Life Updates: I am now going to school only on Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays. Monday and Fridays I will study at home :) It is starting to really warm up where I live and I think that is helping to minimize all of the comfort-food cravings.

Weight-loss? FAIL. I am at 120 lbs right now........... Not on a diet. Oh, and that Russian Gymnast thing lasted about a day D:

My Plan: Not blogging has shown me something. Blogging every day tends to make me obsess over what I eat and that makes me stress, and THAT makes me eat (among other things). I think I'll blog less frequently now, but I'll make sure it is a minimum of once a week.....Most likely on a Friday :)

OhMyGawdICanSeeSummer!

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One Day, One Victory

Smiley Face!! I'm glad today went well :) It wasn't perfect, but I kept food to a minimum and mostly ate fruit. For breakfast I downed a glass of orange juice before scrambling out the door. Lunch was one orange, snacks after school were the following: Two small oranges, a few bites of meat, a small cheese stick, one hard boiled egg and a small bowl of white rice. Again, it wasn't perfect, regardless I am happy about my intake.

I have this paper thing due tomorrow and I have had all of spring break to finish it. BUT. I am a true procrastinator and I saved the ending for tonight. Yay me -__-. Gotta get started on that...........

Good luck to all of you trying to lose weight! The followers of this blog have grown again and it's now at 10 :) It's fun to watch the numbers go up <3

Russian Gymnast Diet

I am starting this diet tomorrow morning and my last day will be Monday, April 8th. For the next week I am going to focus on sticking to the diet and only making changes to it that are completely necessary and will help me stay on track. On my last diet, I don't think I took it seriously enough and as a result, did not lose any weight from it. I'm not sure if I will lose fifteen pounds (although that would put me at my ideal weight).......Hopefully I do lose a nice chunk of weight to get me started. Of course, anyone is welcome to join me and I think it would make it a little easier knowing someone else is going through the same thing :)

I am weighing myself in the morning for a solid start weight. REALLY hoping I am not above 121 lbs. This is going to be a fat burning seven days :)

Detox Diet

Today could definitely have gone a million times better, but it didn't. At this point I don't really have time to give up, so everyday is a new struggle. First thing this morning I binged which is a horrible way to start the day. It made me feel really sick for a while afterwards. I had a two hour ballet class in the afternoon so I got some exercise in :) Then, in an attempt to save the day I ate only a few bites of dinner and gave the rest to my little sister. Buuut then I had a bagel a bunch of tortilla chips after everyone went to bed. MY WEAKNESS.

I'm thinking tomorrow's food will only consist of fruits and veggies because all these starches and binge foods are really beginning to feel disgusting as they sit in my stomach and make me fat. I just want to be rid of them and I think I am actually quite a bit addicted to sugar, salt and starches. 

Today was the last day of SGD and I really don't think I tried as hard as I could have. Maybe if I actually stuck to it everyday I would have lost weight. I think sometimes I would lie to myself about the calories and really that doesn't make it better because that way I wont lose weight. I am so frustrating to myself at times. I feel like every time I post on here it is so describe another day of failure. That really needs to stop. Yeah. I need to step up my game because if I don't, nothing is going to change and that is what I'm afraid of.

Stay with me people. I'll struggle harder for you tomorrow <3

I'll Be Stronger

I am so ashamed right now. I let you down and I let myself down. I am tired of feeling this way and I want tomorrow to be better. The next time I want to eat I will try to remember how it feels to be stuffed and disgusted. Food can't make me feel better. It only makes it worse and I need to keep that in mind.

I am going to try not to let this drag me down, and tomorrow morning I'll get up without food and go to bed without food. I don't care if it's painful, or even if I have to leave my house to avoid dinner. I don't care. I am going to prove to myself that it is possible to have control.

Not sure what my intake was today because I stopped counting when it got bad :/ I did manage to exercise but then I made cookies and it went downhill fast from there. I hope everyone is doing well. Reading your blogs has become like a nightly ritual for me :) Stay Strong <3

Everyday Is The Same.

Why don't I have stronger will power? When I don't eat, I want food SO bad and then once I eat I regret it!! It's a vicious cycle and it hasn't gotten me anywhere near skinny. I remember when I was at my lowest weigh two years ago and I never really binged. Since then I have spiraled out of control and I need to get back there. I'm switching school for next year and I want to start over thin and confidant. I don't know whether to use negative or positive motivation.........I just need to be thin. Everything these days reminds me how I am failing at achieving this one. Simple. Goal. Lately my mom has even gotten thinner than me and it freaks me out how out of control this all is.

I think I'll leave it at that and hopefully I'll have something better to post tomorrow. After school is always my weakest point in the day and today it pretty much ruined me :( Good night <3 Thanks for all of your support!!