One Day, One Victory

Smiley Face!! I'm glad today went well :) It wasn't perfect, but I kept food to a minimum and mostly ate fruit. For breakfast I downed a glass of orange juice before scrambling out the door. Lunch was one orange, snacks after school were the following: Two small oranges, a few bites of meat, a small cheese stick, one hard boiled egg and a small bowl of white rice. Again, it wasn't perfect, regardless I am happy about my intake.

I have this paper thing due tomorrow and I have had all of spring break to finish it. BUT. I am a true procrastinator and I saved the ending for tonight. Yay me -__-. Gotta get started on that...........

Good luck to all of you trying to lose weight! The followers of this blog have grown again and it's now at 10 :) It's fun to watch the numbers go up <3

Chocolate and Valentine's Day

  

  Valentine's day. A day you absolutely hate or love. Personally I think there is just too much pink EVERYwhere today.....buuuut in the holiday spirit why not have some fun. 

  For me today wasn't much different from any normal Thursday. I think I have a boyfriend, but at the moment things are a bit confusing....lets just say we might get back together but nothing's set in stone at this point. Urgg. Also I have had quite a bit of sugar today....chocolate, cake, lollipop, cookie and a snickers bar. But not to worry, I shall fast tomorrow! 

  I am very proud of myself for posting everyday! Yay me! At first I was nervous it was going to be like a chore but I actually find it pretty fun. It's like writing in my journal and it helps me wind down at the end of the day. Hopefully sometime soon here I'll get some comments....I am itching to interact with the public!

  So. No school for me tomorrow so I will keep you all updated and stuff :) 

<3 Pink and Hearts! Or not... for those of you who abhor this holiday. I totally get that.

And for those of you who are pissed today......

Cleaning. Everything.

  Lately I have started getting really pissed if I have to deal with a messy house or a messy room. I have become like supper O.C.D (obsessive compulsive disorder) and cleaned my room and did ALL of my laundry. It's quite nice actually....usually I'm just so laaazy.                                      

  So today so far I have eaten one apple cinnamon cereal bar (140) and way to many Bits crackers. Uhgg. Can't wait until Friday so I can fast in peace!
  Kinda just lazing around the house today because I didn't feel to hot this morning....BUT I am going to ballet because taking make up classes is just so bothersome. Meh. I should probably go beg my dad to drive me. Not really looking forward to that but it simply must be done sooooo.
  I am also going to be weighing myself every Saturday morning because my house doesn't have a GODDAMN SCALE!!! But my neighbor has one so I'll just pop over there and say hi and make up some reason for being there. Excuses, excuses.

  We can do it!! Wishing you all the best of luck <3          

                                                   

<3

Books and Food

  So. Today I would say I did better than yesterday... although I didn't stick to purely fruits and veggies. Rawr. I ate one apple with lemon juice because I hate when they get all mushy and gross after you cut them up. Then when I got home my dad was being all weird and kept telling me to eat my dinner and wouldn't stop nagging! Rawr again. So I ate it and it was about a half cup of brown rice, a piece of pork and some lettuce. Not so bad but still not what I said I was going to have.
   
  Today I woke up with a sore ankle and talked to my ballet teacher about it. I'm supposed to ice it and stretch it tonight....but this is really annoying because I was fine yesterday and it just came out of nowhere.

  Anywho. Yesterday I went to the library and they FINALLY had the book I requested in SEPTEMBER!! I is The Perks of Being a Wallflower if you were wondering. The movie just came out and I wanted to read the book first for once XD That's probably why so many people requested it.... duh. More good news! I have a four day weekend starting Friday for Presidents day. I WILL fast. It is much easier not to eat when I don't have to concentrate for school so I shall take advantage :)
  Good luck to all!! It's never to late to start people!
Stay Strong <3 Queue thinspo...kehehehe....

Motivation!

  Hey.... so first day of the fast went FANtastic. Didn't eat a single crumb and only had green tea and water. However...uhhh, well today I kinda crumbled and ate pizza and crackers. I know, I know. Never end a fast with a binge but I was so weak and shaky and I started doubting myself and questioning why I was even doing this in the first place. Of course now that I have eaten and have my head back on straight I regret it but oh well, I will do better tomorrow. Food plans for the next three days are exclusively fruits and veggies to give me strength for my two hour long ballet classes.

  On a brighter note, I beat my record time of fasting which was previously 36 hours without food. This time I managed about 43 hours until I went into a weird delirious state and ate evil carbs D: I seriously think I am addicted to bread and chips and other generally unhealthy foods and maybe I will go on a non-carb diet to refresh my taste buds.Yes. I should really do that before they completely rule my brain.

  I have almost finished the book Wintergirls, and so far I really like it and would recommend it to the readers of this blog...although I'm not sure if there are any at this point.... XD On Sunday I made a list of things I could do instead of eating and they really seemed to help and kept me busy for the majority of the day....I still need to find a way to refrain from food once I really get desperate because that is my flaw. So her are the distractions I came up with.... there are probably plenty more on the internet but here is my contribution:

• Paint Nails
• Shower (if you haven't already... and take your time!)
• Laundry (Make a goal to complete all of the laundry you are responsible for)
• Read (Wintergirls?)
• Jumping Jacks (I like to do them while watching thinspo. Much more motivating)
• Clean! (Your room, your kitchen, your house... etc.)
• Draw/Paint/Make art
• Do homework/Any paperwork 
• Brush/Floss teeth 
• At home spa (face mask, hair mask, soothing bath etc.)
• Exercise
• Drink water and green tea!!
• Take a Nap (gives you energy if you are fasting)
• Watch thinspo (don't forget why you are doing this. It is possible!!!)

  I'll try and post tomorrow or the next day. Hope this was helpful! Stay away from that food!!

~Persistence is key <3