Showing posts with label Dear Ana. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Dear Ana. Show all posts

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Dear Ana

Dear Ana,
Why won't your whispers leave me alone.
They trickle through the cracks in my thoughts to posses me when I am weak,
And yet I am stuck in the middle.
I cannot escape you but you don't have all the control anymore.
My mouth has the control.
It wants to devour everything and often I let it.
Ana. You were supposed to stop this. 
I wanted skinny and I got it, but only for a fleeting, dreamlike moment.
I dream about that time now and try to remember how I did it.
You promised me perfection but you forgot to tell me perfection is impossible.
I want perfection.